For the state of their sex life while trying for this first child see here (http://jessara40k.livejournal.com/70139.html#cutid1).
Brangwen honestly thinks she's making it easier on Cloud by telling him to effectively treat her like a blow-up doll. She knows he wasn't very comfortable the first three times, and for herself she has issues enjoying sex that is specifically meant to produce a child, and there's no getting around the fact that reproduction is the main purpose of her sex life with Cloud. If they'd had sex earlier, before she was fertile, like on their wedding night instead of Cloud going off to sleep with Sephiroth and Tseng and Brangwen choosing not to send for Elena, maybe it would be different, but she knows that she won't really be able to enjoy sex with Cloud until after they have their first child, so why bother making him try?
Sephiroth on the other hand hates the fact that here's yet another thing he can't give Cloud, do for him. Intellectually he accepts the necessity, and he appreciated it that Brangwen, who's really more his friend than Cloud's, let him know when she'd need to be with Cloud for the best chance to conceive and get this over with quickly, but emotionally it hurts him, especially because Cloud's reluctance and concern for his feelings is putting him in the position of sending the man he loves to another person three nights every month.
And Cloud has issues with the fact that he's hurting Sephiroth by doing this, and with the way Brangwen effectively orders him to use her.
I think their sex life becomes healthier by the time they need to conceive a second child, partly because Elena explains precisely what she needs from him if he decides that the child she's going to have as a companion for Brangwen's should be his, and he has sex with Brangwen just for fun a few time before that.
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Date: 2008-06-19 02:33 pm (UTC)Brangwen honestly thinks she's making it easier on Cloud by telling him to effectively treat her like a blow-up doll. She knows he wasn't very comfortable the first three times, and for herself she has issues enjoying sex that is specifically meant to produce a child, and there's no getting around the fact that reproduction is the main purpose of her sex life with Cloud. If they'd had sex earlier, before she was fertile, like on their wedding night instead of Cloud going off to sleep with Sephiroth and Tseng and Brangwen choosing not to send for Elena, maybe it would be different, but she knows that she won't really be able to enjoy sex with Cloud until after they have their first child, so why bother making him try?
Sephiroth on the other hand hates the fact that here's yet another thing he can't give Cloud, do for him. Intellectually he accepts the necessity, and he appreciated it that Brangwen, who's really more his friend than Cloud's, let him know when she'd need to be with Cloud for the best chance to conceive and get this over with quickly, but emotionally it hurts him, especially because Cloud's reluctance and concern for his feelings is putting him in the position of sending the man he loves to another person three nights every month.
And Cloud has issues with the fact that he's hurting Sephiroth by doing this, and with the way Brangwen effectively orders him to use her.
I think their sex life becomes healthier by the time they need to conceive a second child, partly because Elena explains precisely what she needs from him if he decides that the child she's going to have as a companion for Brangwen's should be his, and he has sex with Brangwen just for fun a few time before that.