FIC Keeper Part 2
Aug. 31st, 2006 08:43 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jessara40k_ljKeeper
Final Fantasy VII fic, pre-game AU.
CloudxSephiroth - and yes that does mean Cloud is topping.
Rating R.
Warning issues of consent here
Cloud decided not to bother with the painkillers, yes he was still hurting from the Mako injection, and from some of the other things the scientists had done to him, but he’d been hurt more in the past, and he rarely got this sort of painkiller then. Instead he settled for taking 4 aspirins, figuring that the Mako injection he’d had today would be enough to keep him from overdosing when he took just one extra pill. He put the pill Sephiroth had given him into the almost empty bottle; they looked different enough that he didn’t think there was any chance of him getting them confused anyway. He did want to be with Sephiroth again tonight, even if he wasn’t quite comfortable with the idea of taking the General, so he spent an hour working on his swordplay, and marvelling at how much easier it was after just one injection, before returning to the entrance room.
“If you would prefer we could spar first, then go to my rooms, since there’s no cameras in those rooms.” The General’s voice was perfectly neutral, Cloud had no idea what he wanted to do, except...
“I’m not good enough to spar with you.” Cloud thought he saw an odd hint of something like relief when he stood up and began walking towards Sephiroth’s bedroom. “I don’t want to disappoint you.” In bed, or in anything else.
“As the more experienced swordsman it would be my duty in a spar to restrict myself to a level just above yours, and you won’t disappoint me in bed if you’re worried about that.” Sephiroth smiled faintly at Cloud as they entered his bedroom and glanced over at the other door. “Would you like to shower together first?” That would be good. Cloud had seen Sephiroth naked the last time, and he knew that Sephiroth had seen him naked, but he was still a bit embarrassed about his body, and he knew he had to stink from the training he’d been told to do between injections and sessions with that machine.
“Yes, please.” Then he thought of something else. “Should I...undress you?”
“Here you mean? If you want, it would be more convenient after all. And I can return the favour after you’ve finished with me.” Sephiroth was smiling lightly, and Cloud couldn’t think of a way to refuse even though he wanted to. But Sephiroth seemed to notice his discomfort and knelt in front of his trunk, pulling out a robe. “You can wear this on the way to the bathroom if you want.”
“Thank you.” Cloud took the robe from him and put it on a chair then stepped up to kiss Sephiroth, slowly. He didn’t realise that Sephiroth was standing against the edge of the bed until he pressed forward a little too hard, unbalancing them both and they fell onto the bed. “I...I’m sorry sir!” Cloud tried to roll off Sephiroth in horror, the General had said he found Cloud attractive, wanted to have sex with him, and now Cloud screwed up like this. But Sephiroth grabbed hold of his shoulders, and wriggled beneath him, kissing him again before speaking.
“Don’t apologise. And please, don’t call me ‘sir’. I told you, I’m sub, that means you tell me what you want, and I’ll do it.” Cloud didn’t quite believe that, but if that was what the General wanted...
“Just stay where you are and let me undress you then.” Sephiroth nodded and let go of him, so he could get off the bed. The boots first, and he knelt to pull them off, followed by the socks, then he pulled Sephiroth up to sit on the bed, kissing him as he did. He hesitated before doing anything else, but Sephiroth gave him an encouraging smile, so he pushed the long coat Sephiroth was wearing off his shoulders, lightly kissing the base of Sephiroth’s throat as he did. He’d seen Sephiroth take the harness he wore across his chest off, but he didn’t know how to do it himself, so he fumbled about looking for the fastening, feeling his face heating up in embarrassment as he did.
“Please...” Cloud felt Sephiroth’s cool hand lie gently against his cheek as he spoke. “don’t be embarrassed, I know you’re new at this and as long as you take control at some point I’ll be happy.” At some point because Cloud wasn’t doing very well at taking control at the moment. He nodded and once he wasn’t focusing on how much he was screwing up he managed to unfasten the harness easily. Belt, no belts, and why would anyone wear two of them, next, then finally...
“Stand up.” He wanted to finish that sentence with ‘sir’, or even just ‘please’, but Sephiroth had asked Cloud to take control, and there was this faintly relieved look on his face as he obeyed, before he bowed his head so that his hair fell forward to hide his face. Cloud paused, then licked at one of Sephiroth’s hard nipples, before trying to suck it as his hands explored the General’s body above the waist, tracing the lines of his muscles. Cloud felt Sephiroth’s hair brush his cheek as he tossed his head back and moaned in pleasure, making him think of something and he pulled back.
“We’ll just get dirty again if we shower before we have sex, so...I think I should take you now.”
“If that’s what you want.” Sephiroth’s voice was low, and arousal was clear in it, so Cloud kissed him again before beginning to unfasten his pants. He cupped Sephiroth’s ass, and slid a hand down between his buttocks, looking for his entrance, and paused when he felt something round and metallic blocking his fingers.
“What’s this?” He took hold of the object and wriggled it a bit, getting a quiet moan from Sephiroth in response.
“Butt plug. So...you wouldn’t have...to stretch me.” Cloud didn’t even try to hide how much that hurt.
“Did you think I’d refuse or something?” Somehow he found he’d wrapped Sephiroth’s hair in the hand not playing with the butt plug and yanked on it, and he pulled the plug partway out before pushing it back in as he spoke.
“No...” But he wouldn’t meet Cloud’s eyes for some reason, and he wet his lips looking almost nervous. “But...you’re new to this, and I wanted to make it easy for you. If you wanted, we could do this again after we shower, and you can try stretching me then. I...compared to Angeal you’re small, so I don’t need as much preparation as you do.” He looked as if he thought he’d insulted Cloud, but he knew how well hung Angeal was; even when the SOLDIER was dressed it was obvious.
“Then there’s no problem me taking you face to face, is there?”
“No, there isn’t.” Sephiroth looked directly into Cloud’s eyes, a smile on his face as he replied.
“Lie down then.” Cloud really wasn’t comfortable undressing in front of the General, but...he’d liked Cloud’s body last night, and he’d let Cloud undress him first, so with that in mind he stripped, quickly and efficiently. “Is there anything I need to do?”
“Just use that oil, on the table there, to cover your cock, pull the butt plug out and take me, if that’s what you want to do.” Sephiroth had already arranged himself the way Cloud had been arrange last time, with pillows under his hips to raise his ass to a more accessible position and Cloud came to kneel between his open legs, the bottle of oil in one hand. He pulled the plug out first, then he managed to position himself right at the entrance to Sephiroth’s body and poured the oil over his cock and pushed in. It was incredible, hot and tight, even with the stretching done by the butt plug, and Cloud just stayed still for a moment, savouring the feeling, and trying to keep from being overwhelmed by it. He wanted to last long enough to please Sephiroth after all.
“Cloud...please...move.” He was startled into motion by Sephiroth’s quiet plea, pulling out until only the head of his penis was inside him, and then thrusting in until he was fully sheathed inside Sephiroth. It didn’t take long for him to come, but...Sephiroth was still hard.
xoXox
Sephiroth felt Cloud’s seed fill him, and he knew that his lover would feel guilty that he hadn’t climaxed as well, or better, first. It didn’t matter that much, it was easy enough to get a man off, but he didn’t think Cloud would see it that way.
“I...I’m sorry sir.” Cloud began trying to pull out, but Sephiroth grabbed hold of his shoulders.
“Don’t, please, just stay inside me, and touch me. You’ll get hard again soon enough. I should have made sure you came once first, so you wouldn’t be so hair-triggered and so you’d last longer.” He smiled, hoping that Cloud would understand. “Besides, it feels a lot better when you come first and do something else for me than if I came a long time before you did and you just kept on going until it hurt me.” Zack had done that once, without realising what he was doing, he’d felt very guilty afterwards, so much that he spent the next time they were together devoted almost entirely to Sephiroth’s pleasure. Once he’d finished speaking Sephiroth let go of Cloud, waiting for him to make his decision.
“Are you sure sir?” Cloud’s hand slid between their bodies to grasp Sephiroth’s cock as he spoke. “You seem to be losing interest.”
“You’re calling me sir. That’s a big turn-off for me.” He shut his eyes and turned his head away, resigning himself to whatever Cloud decided. Cloud left one hand wrapped around his dick, and used the other hand to turn Sephiroth’s face towards him, gripping his chin firmly, but not painfully.
“Look at me.” Cloud didn’t say anything else until Sephiroth had obeyed, and Sephiroth was sure he’d noticed his renewed arousal at the command, even if he might have attributed it to something else. “Tell me exactly what you enjoy.” He wouldn’t tell Cloud everything, he didn’t want to frighten him off, but he’d say enough to satisfy him.
“Commands. Tell me what to do, don’t ask. And... if you could...be a little rough.”
“How rough? This rough?” And he let go of Sephiroth’s face to twist a nipple, hard. “Or a bit rougher?”
“Anything you want.” He could easily cast a Cure if Cloud got overenthusiastic, Cloud wouldn’t be able to drain him the way Hojo did, not in just one night.
Cloud raked his nails down Sephiroth’s side and he shut his eyes again, shivering and moaning in pleasure. Cloud bit his lower lip then, drawing blood, and squeezed a bit harder than he had been on Sephiroth’s cock, digging his short nails in slightly.
“Keep your eyes open and look at me.”
“Y-yes Cloud.” Sephiroth deliberately tightened on Cloud’s hardening cock inside him, licking the blood from his lip, slowly. Angeal and Zack were always so careful not to draw his blood, they’d all seen how badly normal humans reacted to a SOLDIER’s blood, and seed, and they knew how much more powerful he was than they were but Cloud didn’t seem to care about the risk. That or he didn’t know about it, but since he was intended to become Sephiroth’s equal, and they were close to the best assistance possible...
He was distracted from his thoughts when Cloud managed to hit his prostate for the first time, and he cried out, arching his back in pleasure, but not closing his eyes, not when Cloud had forbidden it.
“Please! Do that again.”
“You mean this?” And Cloud thrust again, only this time as he pushed in he twisted and managed to bite Sephiroth’s left nipple, the one that had taken less abuse to that point and Sephiroth climaxed. It only took three more thrusts for Cloud to climax as well and then he slowly pulled out of him. “Was that alright...Sephiroth?” He ran an anxious hand down Sephiroth’s unmarked side, and Sephiroth shut his eyes to purr for a moment.
“More than alright, you did wonderfully.” He reached up and caught Cloud’s other hand, bringing it to his lips and kissing it lightly. “If it pleases you I would love to do this again, whenever we have time.”
“But next time you’re going to show me how to prepare you, aren’t you?”
“If that is what you wish.” Sephiroth had hoped he’d be able to make sure he was already prepared when the time came for Cloud to cement his bond to him, but teaching Cloud how to prepare him couldn’t go amiss. Could it? “Do you still want to enjoy me after we shower?”
“No...” He trailed off, looking at Sephiroth a little speculatively. “But we could shower together then go to my bedroom for you to teach me a bit about giving a blow job.” Sephiroth wondered if Cloud remembered about the cameras, although what he was suggesting would fit in with people’s assumptions pretty well.
“Should I bring the oil in case you change your mind then? Or if we have time and you decide to take me in the morning.” He was presuming, he knew that, but he liked sleeping in the same bed as his lovers, it gave him a comfort he wasn’t really used to, but that he craved.
“You said there were cameras in my rooms. You wouldn’t mind me fucking you with an audience?”
“No one will be surprised if I hunt down and destroy the cameras in your room if I’m staying there overnight. They give me a headache, have since I was eleven.” And besides the only thing it would really reveal was that he’d found out about how Cloud was supposed to bond him at the end of the week.
“You...wanted to sleep with me, really sleep with me, not just have sex?” Cloud looked even happier than he had when he found out Sephiroth desired him, that was a good thing, wasn’t it? Even if he did feel almost as if he was manipulating him.
“Yes, if you don’t mind. And it isn’t just because my sheets are dirty - they were dirty last night too, but I slept here then.”
“Are you saying you didn’t want to push me?”
“Pretty much. I told you that I’m sub. But since you suggested moving to your bedroom I hoped...”
“It sounds pretty good actually.” Cloud stood and offered Sephiroth a hand to get up, a hand he smiled and accepted, especially since their conversation seemed to have gotten him past his nerves about being naked.
xoXox
Cloud wished it wasn’t the last day of the week that Sephiroth would be sharing quarters with him; he’d loved getting to know the General better and he’d especially loved how Sephiroth was so willing, almost determined, to help him improve his fighting skills. What they did in bed was fun, and he’d got more comfortable with being in charge the way Sephiroth liked over the course of the week, but that came second to knowing that the General cared about him, enough to share his painkillers with him and spend his time teaching Cloud how to fight better.
It bothered him a bit that Sephiroth had been getting more and more submissive over the course of the week, but Cloud just figured it was Sephiroth getting more comfortable with him. That didn’t explain why he’d also been getting a bit anxious as the week went on, almost as if he was anticipating something that never quite happened, and Cloud had a feeling Sephiroth was hiding something from him. And he kept on half hearing Sephiroth’s voice in his head, or feeling strange emotions and being convinced that they were Sephiroth’s, crazy as that sounded.
He knew it was only his imagination, not only was it impossible to hear someone else’s thoughts and feelings, but the General would never think or feel the sort of things he’d been sensing. He couldn’t be feeling a constant low level fear of Cloud, or that weird sense of almost worship, Sephiroth couldn’t be making almost constant calculations of what would make Cloud happy or embarrass him, or believe he was a monster, whose only purpose was to be used by the real people around him. Still, even if it was crazy he could help but mentally wrap himself around that scared little voice, that thin thread of fear and try to send comfort and reassurance to him, he’d do it for anyone, but Sephiroth of all people shouldn’t feel that way. And the pure adoration he always sensed after doing that was a nice high, even if it was still more evidence that he was going crazy because Sephiroth wouldn’t be that grateful for that little.
“One last procedure today.” The lab tech smiled at Cloud, he was one of the nicer ones and Cloud was grateful he didn’t have to face Hojo too often. “You’ve got another session with the neurofeedback machine, and then an injection before we can let you go.”
“Yes sir.” Cloud lay back and relaxed as the neurofeedback machine was fitted to him, letting himself drift, no longer consciously aware of what was happening, he always came out of these sessions feeling more confident in himself and in his abilities and Sephiroth seemed to approve of that. This time he came out of the neurofeedback session hungry for Sephiroth’s delicious body, and he found himself looking mentally for that thin thread of emotion that seemed to come from someone else.
When he found it everything he could sense was as heavily sexualised as he was at the moment, he ignored the thin thread of fear he could sense in favour of using that link to whisper what he wanted to do with Sephiroth directly into his head, telling his lover that he intended to stay with him forever. The injection that the nervous looking lab tech gave him just seemed to add fuel to the fire and once that was done he barely kept from throwing the man aside as he went hunting for his mate, somehow translating that thread of emotions into a direction.
Sephiroth was in his bedroom, almost fully dressed, lying limp on his bed and Cloud made straight for him, climbing on top of him, pinning him down and kissing him hungrily. Sephiroth did respond, but not much, and somehow that inflamed him further. He tore Sephiroth’s pants off, leaving everything else as it was and forced his legs apart and up, without getting a hint of resistance, or encouragement from Sephiroth, sensing only rising arousal mixed with an intoxicating hint of fear through their link and hearing a wordless moan. He took Sephiroth’s cock into his mouth for a moment, scraping his teeth against the skin ever so slightly, then positioned himself to take his mate.
“Please, the oil.” And the arousal he could sense from Sephiroth was dimming to a quiet hum, while the fear grew to almost overpower the arousal. He grabbed the bottle of oil, pouring it over his cock and his hand before pushing two fingers into Sephiroth’s ass, scissoring them briefly and pressing on that little spot until the arousal was high enough to drown in again and the fear had fallen to just enough to intoxicate. “Thank you.” The gratitude tasted delicious and Cloud thrust forward, pushing into Sephiroth until he was balls deep inside him.
‘Mine, you are mine. You will always be mine and never forget it. Heart, body, mind, soul, all mine!’ He forced the thoughts into Sephiroth’s head, ruthlessly overriding his pain with Cloud’s own pleasure.
“Yours, I’m yours!” Sephiroth moaned his almost desperate response, and that was enough to make Cloud come, biting into his neck as he did, then pulling out swiftly enough that some of his seed splattered onto Sephiroth’s stomach and he felt a fresh flare of pain through their link, the link that was becoming stronger now.
“Good.” Cloud crawled up and sat on Sephiroth’s chest, reaching forward to grip his hair and lift his head then fed his half hard cock into his mouth. “Suck me.” Once Sephiroth was obeying and Cloud was fairly certain he’d keep obeying he released his hair and leaned back, supporting himself with one hand and roughly jerking Sephiroth off with the other. Again he pulled out just as he came, spattering seed onto Sephiroth’s face and neck this time, while Sephiroth’s own seed mingled with Cloud’s on his stomach. He smeared his seed into the open bite, whispering possessive words into Sephiroth’s mind, hearing a submissive acknowledgement of that possession back, but it still didn’t seem enough to mark Sephiroth as his, and other than the quiet litany through their link of ‘yours, yours, yours,’ he had gone limp and unresponsive.
He pulled the rest of his mate’s clothes off, laying him gently on the floor, and pissed on him, marking him again, but still leaving him unresponsive, and then he lifted him up, carrying him through to the other bedroom. Then he arranged Sephiroth on his side on the bed, making a nest of the blankets and joining him, pushing inside him once more and whispering a litany of desire and praise into Sephiroth’s mind now that he was certain Sephiroth was, and always would be, his.
xoXox
Sephiroth gasped a little as he woke up, shifting unconsciously despite Cloud’s arm and leg resting over his body. He hadn’t really registered what had happened after Cloud rubbed his seed into that bite he’d given Sephiroth, but he could feel Cloud hard inside him, and even though he ached from that he loved it; Cloud had to have been inside him all night, he was still asleep now. He deliberately tightened his muscles for a moment around Cloud, just enough to encourage him to move, and then relaxed as completely as he could, waiting to see how he responded. It hadn’t worked, and he wriggled just a little bit, hoping that would wake Cloud up enough to start moving. It would be a dry fuck, worse than a dry fuck with the dried come already inside him, but Sephiroth knew he could relax enough to cope with that, if he could take Angeal, even with lube he could take Cloud dry, and besides, he had the day off and he could use it to recover easily enough.
Cloud started to move inside him, nuzzling the back of Sephiroth’s neck and making sleepy little noises as his arm tightened around Sephiroth’s body, then he froze and from the stiffness of his body he had to be awake.
“Oh, fuck!”
“Yes, please. If you can reach, if this is my bed, not yours, I think there’s a Potion on the table behind you.” They’d both kept most of their gear packed away, and there wasn’t a Potion on the table in front of him. Sephiroth could sense Cloud’s feelings of guilt, but he wasn’t sure what their source was, and he hoped that this would settle them for a bit. He could feel Cloud shifting behind him as he released Sephiroth, prompting a slight whine, and slid almost fully out of him, then he could feel the cool Potion being poured onto Cloud’s cock between them. Sephiroth shut his eyes and moaned in pleasure as Cloud slid into him, spreading the Potion inside him and soothing the aches from the previous night, then Cloud reached around and began to stroke him as well, and he heard Cloud’s voice in his mind claiming him.
‘Yes, I’m yours.’ That seemed to be enough to bring Cloud to climax, and the pleasure he sent into Sephiroth’s mind triggered the same for him. When Cloud pulled out this time Sephiroth didn’t protest, he just let his...keeper roll him onto his back and climb on top of him.
“Sephiroth, I’m...sorry. I...I don’t know what came over me last night, I just...”
“It isn’t your fault. I know you wouldn’t do that in your right mind. It’s alright.” Sephiroth wrapped his arms around Cloud and nuzzled him briefly.
“What do you mean it’s alright? I raped you last night, and then I pissed on you!” Sephiroth had been trying to avoid coming to that conclusion, despite the evidence of his senses.
“I...Cloud, we were both drugged, I could have done without that last bit, but I am submissive, and right up until you rubbed your come into the bite you gave me I was having a really good time. I’d have consented to everything you did up to and including that even without the drugs; those and you pissing on me are the only two things I had any objections to. But...I...sort of blanked out when you did that with the bite...did you notice the change?” He couldn’t do anything to change how much control Cloud had over him, and Cloud would find out, he’d probably be told this week, but he could at least try and teach him how to take care of him when he stopped registering things. Sephiroth didn’t like using Cloud’s obvious sense of guilt against him, but...
“You went all limp and unresponsive, but I didn’t care and I should have.”
“And you would have if you hadn’t been drugged. You will if that happens again, I know you well enough to be certain of that. Would you like to know how...to care for me under those circumstances?”
“Yes!”
“It is very simple to describe, less simple to perform. You simply need to keep on touching me, gently, and speak to me in a quiet, comforting tone of voice. The exact words won’t be important while I’m unresponsive, but when I start to regain awareness you need to make sure that what you say is comforting, I won’t be able to handle criticism then.” Sephiroth hesitated, but he had reacted like this before, and he was probably not the best person to teach Cloud how to take care of him in that condition. “Zack and Angeal have both seen and dealt with me in that condition, you should ask them for more advice.”
“I’ll do that.” Cloud seemed to have calmed down enough to begin thinking, and Sephiroth hoped that was a good sign. “You keep on saying we were both drugged and that what I did wasn’t really my fault. Did you know this was going to happen beforehand?”
“I...the ShinRa board decided I was too uncontrollable, they selected you for this because they thought they could control you better.” Cloud was getting impatient, Sephiroth could tell, and he changed what he was going to say. “Yes, I knew you’d take me once Hojo had finished conditioning me to obey you under any circumstances. I knew they planned to give you a drug to make sure you would take me, and to drug me so I couldn’t resist, but I wanted you before I knew about their plans, or how our link would be completed.” He was terrified that Cloud would think he’d seduced him to manipulate him or something, even though one of the reasons he’d dragged Cloud to his bed that first night was to make sure that he at least knew what to do. Cloud felt guilty enough as it was, if he’d been ignorant last night and really hurt Sephiroth...
“I think I can believe what you told me about last night not being rape now. Did you have to break up with Zack and Angeal because of this?” He didn’t seem to be angry at least.
“Not exactly. They...as long as you aren’t possessive they want to keep on with what they have with me.”
“Your order of priorities is as follows then: your health come first;” Cloud must have heard some of the stories Zack told about him being overworked to make that a stipulation. “then your duties, everything you need to do as ShinRa’s best general; I come next, the time I want to spend with you; Zack and Angeal can have you if it doesn’t conflict with any of the other priorities I’ve set.” He looked uncertain then. “I can do that can’t I?”
“Give me orders and set priorities for my life from now on? Oh yes.” And it was a turn on in a way he hadn’t expected. “Thank you for being so generous. How do you want me to address you in private? We can’t let most people know about this, part of the conditioning.”
“What do you mean, how do I want you to address me?” Cloud looked shocked, and Sephiroth knew he hadn’t thought about the implications of how they were bound, and it looked as if he wouldn’t really like them. Sephiroth loved the implications, he’d always felt there was something missing from him and his life, a sense of connection that he’d hungered for - and now he had it.
“In a very real sense you own me now.” Cloud looked horrified by that and Sephiroth hurried to reassure him. “It’s alright, I like that, at least since it’s you, and I know you wouldn’t abuse the power you have over me. I just wondered, when we play that sort of game Zack and Angeal have me call them by some sort of title...”
“No. Just call me Cloud.” He sighed then. “We should probably be getting up now, shouldn’t we?”
“I have today off, and we’ve got time to shower together if you want.”
“That sounds good.”
xoXox
Cloud hadn’t felt this uncertain since that first night with Sephiroth - the only time the General had ever taken him he realised in hindsight. He hadn’t had any problems dealing with Zack and Angeal when they were training him as he got used to his Mako enhancements; they’d been focused purely on training him, and as demanding as they were he’d felt a sense of impersonality to it, more from Angeal than from Zack. They hadn’t had any chance to say anything about his interference in their relationship with Sephiroth, but now Zack had been assigned to take him to his new quarters, and he couldn’t shake the feeling that he’d betrayed his mentor in a way.
“Hey, whatever you told Sephiroth that got him to stop overworking himself and skipping meals and sleep thanks.” Cloud hadn’t expected that, and he smiled at Zack in response.
“I just gave him a list of priorities, and his health was first. You and Angeal come after me though, and I come after his duty.”
“That’s about what we hoped for once we heard you’d been chosen to be Sephiroth’s keeper really, and it’s not like we don’t have the option to find someone else.” Was Zack implying that Cloud and Sephiroth didn’t have that option? He had to admit, at least mentally that he wouldn’t have been so understanding about Sephiroth’s lovers if it hadn’t been a threesome including Zack, and he certainly wasn’t going to let him find any other lovers. “You do understand that you can’t be given any position where you’ll be working directly with Sephiroth yet?”
“Not until we’ve got used to our positions, and learned to keep from letting our personal lives spill over into our duties, I know.”
“Yeah, speaking of personal lives Sephiroth mentioned that you needed someone to tutor you when it comes to aftercare?”
“You mean how to deal with it when he goes all limp and unresponsive?” Cloud kept his voice quiet, they were getting close to SOLDIER territory and he didn’t want anyone to overhear them.
“Umm...not quite. Look, Sephiroth said he wanted to wait and see if there was anything you wanted tonight before he considered making arrangements with us, if you wanted you could meet us in Sephiroth’s quarters around six and we could show you what we mean by aftercare.”
“Not tonight, I want to be with him alone tonight. Tomorrow or the day after if that’s alright with you and Angeal?”
“I’ll get back to you on that. As a SOLDIER 3rd class you get to share a bedroom with up to three other SOLDIERs 3rd class, and a bathroom for every two bedrooms. There’s a room with just two occupants at the moment, and you’ll be moving into that one.” Zack raised his voice as he began to talk about practicalities, and Cloud noted that he’d have to go to Sephiroth’s quarters every time, not that he really minded.
“Do you have any clue where I’m assigned if I’m not going to be working directly with the General?” Cloud accepted the change from personal business to professional business easily.
“No, you might even get a couple of days leave while that’s decided, so keep up with your training until someone tells you where to report.”
“I can do that.” He’d love to show Sephiroth how much he’d improved under Zack and Angeal’s tuition and more training always helped. “Any suggestions about sparring partners?” He already knew Gregori was out.
“I’d say you should look for opponents who’re taller than you and broader across the shoulders. Mako can do about three different things to you; simply add muscle mass, increase height and add muscle mass, or alter the way your body’s built, making the muscles and bones denser.” Cloud nodded, he understood the implication that he was going to fit into the last category and he wondered which category Zack and Sephiroth fell into. “Here’s your room anyway, and your keycard too,” Zack handed the keycard to Cloud after using it to open the door for him, “and you’ve already got all your gear haven’t you?”
“Yes.” He’d been issued three new uniforms during his third week in the lab - when Hojo decided he’d adapted well enough to his enhancements - and he was carrying the trunk with all of his gear in, revelling in his new strength even if it was a bit awkward because of the shape of the trunk. The room was empty, but it was pretty clear which beds were already occupied and Cloud set his trunk at the end of one of the beds that didn’t already have one before going to do some more training.
xoXox
Final Fantasy VII fic, pre-game AU.
CloudxSephiroth - and yes that does mean Cloud is topping.
Rating R.
Warning issues of consent here
Cloud decided not to bother with the painkillers, yes he was still hurting from the Mako injection, and from some of the other things the scientists had done to him, but he’d been hurt more in the past, and he rarely got this sort of painkiller then. Instead he settled for taking 4 aspirins, figuring that the Mako injection he’d had today would be enough to keep him from overdosing when he took just one extra pill. He put the pill Sephiroth had given him into the almost empty bottle; they looked different enough that he didn’t think there was any chance of him getting them confused anyway. He did want to be with Sephiroth again tonight, even if he wasn’t quite comfortable with the idea of taking the General, so he spent an hour working on his swordplay, and marvelling at how much easier it was after just one injection, before returning to the entrance room.
“If you would prefer we could spar first, then go to my rooms, since there’s no cameras in those rooms.” The General’s voice was perfectly neutral, Cloud had no idea what he wanted to do, except...
“I’m not good enough to spar with you.” Cloud thought he saw an odd hint of something like relief when he stood up and began walking towards Sephiroth’s bedroom. “I don’t want to disappoint you.” In bed, or in anything else.
“As the more experienced swordsman it would be my duty in a spar to restrict myself to a level just above yours, and you won’t disappoint me in bed if you’re worried about that.” Sephiroth smiled faintly at Cloud as they entered his bedroom and glanced over at the other door. “Would you like to shower together first?” That would be good. Cloud had seen Sephiroth naked the last time, and he knew that Sephiroth had seen him naked, but he was still a bit embarrassed about his body, and he knew he had to stink from the training he’d been told to do between injections and sessions with that machine.
“Yes, please.” Then he thought of something else. “Should I...undress you?”
“Here you mean? If you want, it would be more convenient after all. And I can return the favour after you’ve finished with me.” Sephiroth was smiling lightly, and Cloud couldn’t think of a way to refuse even though he wanted to. But Sephiroth seemed to notice his discomfort and knelt in front of his trunk, pulling out a robe. “You can wear this on the way to the bathroom if you want.”
“Thank you.” Cloud took the robe from him and put it on a chair then stepped up to kiss Sephiroth, slowly. He didn’t realise that Sephiroth was standing against the edge of the bed until he pressed forward a little too hard, unbalancing them both and they fell onto the bed. “I...I’m sorry sir!” Cloud tried to roll off Sephiroth in horror, the General had said he found Cloud attractive, wanted to have sex with him, and now Cloud screwed up like this. But Sephiroth grabbed hold of his shoulders, and wriggled beneath him, kissing him again before speaking.
“Don’t apologise. And please, don’t call me ‘sir’. I told you, I’m sub, that means you tell me what you want, and I’ll do it.” Cloud didn’t quite believe that, but if that was what the General wanted...
“Just stay where you are and let me undress you then.” Sephiroth nodded and let go of him, so he could get off the bed. The boots first, and he knelt to pull them off, followed by the socks, then he pulled Sephiroth up to sit on the bed, kissing him as he did. He hesitated before doing anything else, but Sephiroth gave him an encouraging smile, so he pushed the long coat Sephiroth was wearing off his shoulders, lightly kissing the base of Sephiroth’s throat as he did. He’d seen Sephiroth take the harness he wore across his chest off, but he didn’t know how to do it himself, so he fumbled about looking for the fastening, feeling his face heating up in embarrassment as he did.
“Please...” Cloud felt Sephiroth’s cool hand lie gently against his cheek as he spoke. “don’t be embarrassed, I know you’re new at this and as long as you take control at some point I’ll be happy.” At some point because Cloud wasn’t doing very well at taking control at the moment. He nodded and once he wasn’t focusing on how much he was screwing up he managed to unfasten the harness easily. Belt, no belts, and why would anyone wear two of them, next, then finally...
“Stand up.” He wanted to finish that sentence with ‘sir’, or even just ‘please’, but Sephiroth had asked Cloud to take control, and there was this faintly relieved look on his face as he obeyed, before he bowed his head so that his hair fell forward to hide his face. Cloud paused, then licked at one of Sephiroth’s hard nipples, before trying to suck it as his hands explored the General’s body above the waist, tracing the lines of his muscles. Cloud felt Sephiroth’s hair brush his cheek as he tossed his head back and moaned in pleasure, making him think of something and he pulled back.
“We’ll just get dirty again if we shower before we have sex, so...I think I should take you now.”
“If that’s what you want.” Sephiroth’s voice was low, and arousal was clear in it, so Cloud kissed him again before beginning to unfasten his pants. He cupped Sephiroth’s ass, and slid a hand down between his buttocks, looking for his entrance, and paused when he felt something round and metallic blocking his fingers.
“What’s this?” He took hold of the object and wriggled it a bit, getting a quiet moan from Sephiroth in response.
“Butt plug. So...you wouldn’t have...to stretch me.” Cloud didn’t even try to hide how much that hurt.
“Did you think I’d refuse or something?” Somehow he found he’d wrapped Sephiroth’s hair in the hand not playing with the butt plug and yanked on it, and he pulled the plug partway out before pushing it back in as he spoke.
“No...” But he wouldn’t meet Cloud’s eyes for some reason, and he wet his lips looking almost nervous. “But...you’re new to this, and I wanted to make it easy for you. If you wanted, we could do this again after we shower, and you can try stretching me then. I...compared to Angeal you’re small, so I don’t need as much preparation as you do.” He looked as if he thought he’d insulted Cloud, but he knew how well hung Angeal was; even when the SOLDIER was dressed it was obvious.
“Then there’s no problem me taking you face to face, is there?”
“No, there isn’t.” Sephiroth looked directly into Cloud’s eyes, a smile on his face as he replied.
“Lie down then.” Cloud really wasn’t comfortable undressing in front of the General, but...he’d liked Cloud’s body last night, and he’d let Cloud undress him first, so with that in mind he stripped, quickly and efficiently. “Is there anything I need to do?”
“Just use that oil, on the table there, to cover your cock, pull the butt plug out and take me, if that’s what you want to do.” Sephiroth had already arranged himself the way Cloud had been arrange last time, with pillows under his hips to raise his ass to a more accessible position and Cloud came to kneel between his open legs, the bottle of oil in one hand. He pulled the plug out first, then he managed to position himself right at the entrance to Sephiroth’s body and poured the oil over his cock and pushed in. It was incredible, hot and tight, even with the stretching done by the butt plug, and Cloud just stayed still for a moment, savouring the feeling, and trying to keep from being overwhelmed by it. He wanted to last long enough to please Sephiroth after all.
“Cloud...please...move.” He was startled into motion by Sephiroth’s quiet plea, pulling out until only the head of his penis was inside him, and then thrusting in until he was fully sheathed inside Sephiroth. It didn’t take long for him to come, but...Sephiroth was still hard.
Sephiroth felt Cloud’s seed fill him, and he knew that his lover would feel guilty that he hadn’t climaxed as well, or better, first. It didn’t matter that much, it was easy enough to get a man off, but he didn’t think Cloud would see it that way.
“I...I’m sorry sir.” Cloud began trying to pull out, but Sephiroth grabbed hold of his shoulders.
“Don’t, please, just stay inside me, and touch me. You’ll get hard again soon enough. I should have made sure you came once first, so you wouldn’t be so hair-triggered and so you’d last longer.” He smiled, hoping that Cloud would understand. “Besides, it feels a lot better when you come first and do something else for me than if I came a long time before you did and you just kept on going until it hurt me.” Zack had done that once, without realising what he was doing, he’d felt very guilty afterwards, so much that he spent the next time they were together devoted almost entirely to Sephiroth’s pleasure. Once he’d finished speaking Sephiroth let go of Cloud, waiting for him to make his decision.
“Are you sure sir?” Cloud’s hand slid between their bodies to grasp Sephiroth’s cock as he spoke. “You seem to be losing interest.”
“You’re calling me sir. That’s a big turn-off for me.” He shut his eyes and turned his head away, resigning himself to whatever Cloud decided. Cloud left one hand wrapped around his dick, and used the other hand to turn Sephiroth’s face towards him, gripping his chin firmly, but not painfully.
“Look at me.” Cloud didn’t say anything else until Sephiroth had obeyed, and Sephiroth was sure he’d noticed his renewed arousal at the command, even if he might have attributed it to something else. “Tell me exactly what you enjoy.” He wouldn’t tell Cloud everything, he didn’t want to frighten him off, but he’d say enough to satisfy him.
“Commands. Tell me what to do, don’t ask. And... if you could...be a little rough.”
“How rough? This rough?” And he let go of Sephiroth’s face to twist a nipple, hard. “Or a bit rougher?”
“Anything you want.” He could easily cast a Cure if Cloud got overenthusiastic, Cloud wouldn’t be able to drain him the way Hojo did, not in just one night.
Cloud raked his nails down Sephiroth’s side and he shut his eyes again, shivering and moaning in pleasure. Cloud bit his lower lip then, drawing blood, and squeezed a bit harder than he had been on Sephiroth’s cock, digging his short nails in slightly.
“Keep your eyes open and look at me.”
“Y-yes Cloud.” Sephiroth deliberately tightened on Cloud’s hardening cock inside him, licking the blood from his lip, slowly. Angeal and Zack were always so careful not to draw his blood, they’d all seen how badly normal humans reacted to a SOLDIER’s blood, and seed, and they knew how much more powerful he was than they were but Cloud didn’t seem to care about the risk. That or he didn’t know about it, but since he was intended to become Sephiroth’s equal, and they were close to the best assistance possible...
He was distracted from his thoughts when Cloud managed to hit his prostate for the first time, and he cried out, arching his back in pleasure, but not closing his eyes, not when Cloud had forbidden it.
“Please! Do that again.”
“You mean this?” And Cloud thrust again, only this time as he pushed in he twisted and managed to bite Sephiroth’s left nipple, the one that had taken less abuse to that point and Sephiroth climaxed. It only took three more thrusts for Cloud to climax as well and then he slowly pulled out of him. “Was that alright...Sephiroth?” He ran an anxious hand down Sephiroth’s unmarked side, and Sephiroth shut his eyes to purr for a moment.
“More than alright, you did wonderfully.” He reached up and caught Cloud’s other hand, bringing it to his lips and kissing it lightly. “If it pleases you I would love to do this again, whenever we have time.”
“But next time you’re going to show me how to prepare you, aren’t you?”
“If that is what you wish.” Sephiroth had hoped he’d be able to make sure he was already prepared when the time came for Cloud to cement his bond to him, but teaching Cloud how to prepare him couldn’t go amiss. Could it? “Do you still want to enjoy me after we shower?”
“No...” He trailed off, looking at Sephiroth a little speculatively. “But we could shower together then go to my bedroom for you to teach me a bit about giving a blow job.” Sephiroth wondered if Cloud remembered about the cameras, although what he was suggesting would fit in with people’s assumptions pretty well.
“Should I bring the oil in case you change your mind then? Or if we have time and you decide to take me in the morning.” He was presuming, he knew that, but he liked sleeping in the same bed as his lovers, it gave him a comfort he wasn’t really used to, but that he craved.
“You said there were cameras in my rooms. You wouldn’t mind me fucking you with an audience?”
“No one will be surprised if I hunt down and destroy the cameras in your room if I’m staying there overnight. They give me a headache, have since I was eleven.” And besides the only thing it would really reveal was that he’d found out about how Cloud was supposed to bond him at the end of the week.
“You...wanted to sleep with me, really sleep with me, not just have sex?” Cloud looked even happier than he had when he found out Sephiroth desired him, that was a good thing, wasn’t it? Even if he did feel almost as if he was manipulating him.
“Yes, if you don’t mind. And it isn’t just because my sheets are dirty - they were dirty last night too, but I slept here then.”
“Are you saying you didn’t want to push me?”
“Pretty much. I told you that I’m sub. But since you suggested moving to your bedroom I hoped...”
“It sounds pretty good actually.” Cloud stood and offered Sephiroth a hand to get up, a hand he smiled and accepted, especially since their conversation seemed to have gotten him past his nerves about being naked.
Cloud wished it wasn’t the last day of the week that Sephiroth would be sharing quarters with him; he’d loved getting to know the General better and he’d especially loved how Sephiroth was so willing, almost determined, to help him improve his fighting skills. What they did in bed was fun, and he’d got more comfortable with being in charge the way Sephiroth liked over the course of the week, but that came second to knowing that the General cared about him, enough to share his painkillers with him and spend his time teaching Cloud how to fight better.
It bothered him a bit that Sephiroth had been getting more and more submissive over the course of the week, but Cloud just figured it was Sephiroth getting more comfortable with him. That didn’t explain why he’d also been getting a bit anxious as the week went on, almost as if he was anticipating something that never quite happened, and Cloud had a feeling Sephiroth was hiding something from him. And he kept on half hearing Sephiroth’s voice in his head, or feeling strange emotions and being convinced that they were Sephiroth’s, crazy as that sounded.
He knew it was only his imagination, not only was it impossible to hear someone else’s thoughts and feelings, but the General would never think or feel the sort of things he’d been sensing. He couldn’t be feeling a constant low level fear of Cloud, or that weird sense of almost worship, Sephiroth couldn’t be making almost constant calculations of what would make Cloud happy or embarrass him, or believe he was a monster, whose only purpose was to be used by the real people around him. Still, even if it was crazy he could help but mentally wrap himself around that scared little voice, that thin thread of fear and try to send comfort and reassurance to him, he’d do it for anyone, but Sephiroth of all people shouldn’t feel that way. And the pure adoration he always sensed after doing that was a nice high, even if it was still more evidence that he was going crazy because Sephiroth wouldn’t be that grateful for that little.
“One last procedure today.” The lab tech smiled at Cloud, he was one of the nicer ones and Cloud was grateful he didn’t have to face Hojo too often. “You’ve got another session with the neurofeedback machine, and then an injection before we can let you go.”
“Yes sir.” Cloud lay back and relaxed as the neurofeedback machine was fitted to him, letting himself drift, no longer consciously aware of what was happening, he always came out of these sessions feeling more confident in himself and in his abilities and Sephiroth seemed to approve of that. This time he came out of the neurofeedback session hungry for Sephiroth’s delicious body, and he found himself looking mentally for that thin thread of emotion that seemed to come from someone else.
When he found it everything he could sense was as heavily sexualised as he was at the moment, he ignored the thin thread of fear he could sense in favour of using that link to whisper what he wanted to do with Sephiroth directly into his head, telling his lover that he intended to stay with him forever. The injection that the nervous looking lab tech gave him just seemed to add fuel to the fire and once that was done he barely kept from throwing the man aside as he went hunting for his mate, somehow translating that thread of emotions into a direction.
Sephiroth was in his bedroom, almost fully dressed, lying limp on his bed and Cloud made straight for him, climbing on top of him, pinning him down and kissing him hungrily. Sephiroth did respond, but not much, and somehow that inflamed him further. He tore Sephiroth’s pants off, leaving everything else as it was and forced his legs apart and up, without getting a hint of resistance, or encouragement from Sephiroth, sensing only rising arousal mixed with an intoxicating hint of fear through their link and hearing a wordless moan. He took Sephiroth’s cock into his mouth for a moment, scraping his teeth against the skin ever so slightly, then positioned himself to take his mate.
“Please, the oil.” And the arousal he could sense from Sephiroth was dimming to a quiet hum, while the fear grew to almost overpower the arousal. He grabbed the bottle of oil, pouring it over his cock and his hand before pushing two fingers into Sephiroth’s ass, scissoring them briefly and pressing on that little spot until the arousal was high enough to drown in again and the fear had fallen to just enough to intoxicate. “Thank you.” The gratitude tasted delicious and Cloud thrust forward, pushing into Sephiroth until he was balls deep inside him.
‘Mine, you are mine. You will always be mine and never forget it. Heart, body, mind, soul, all mine!’ He forced the thoughts into Sephiroth’s head, ruthlessly overriding his pain with Cloud’s own pleasure.
“Yours, I’m yours!” Sephiroth moaned his almost desperate response, and that was enough to make Cloud come, biting into his neck as he did, then pulling out swiftly enough that some of his seed splattered onto Sephiroth’s stomach and he felt a fresh flare of pain through their link, the link that was becoming stronger now.
“Good.” Cloud crawled up and sat on Sephiroth’s chest, reaching forward to grip his hair and lift his head then fed his half hard cock into his mouth. “Suck me.” Once Sephiroth was obeying and Cloud was fairly certain he’d keep obeying he released his hair and leaned back, supporting himself with one hand and roughly jerking Sephiroth off with the other. Again he pulled out just as he came, spattering seed onto Sephiroth’s face and neck this time, while Sephiroth’s own seed mingled with Cloud’s on his stomach. He smeared his seed into the open bite, whispering possessive words into Sephiroth’s mind, hearing a submissive acknowledgement of that possession back, but it still didn’t seem enough to mark Sephiroth as his, and other than the quiet litany through their link of ‘yours, yours, yours,’ he had gone limp and unresponsive.
He pulled the rest of his mate’s clothes off, laying him gently on the floor, and pissed on him, marking him again, but still leaving him unresponsive, and then he lifted him up, carrying him through to the other bedroom. Then he arranged Sephiroth on his side on the bed, making a nest of the blankets and joining him, pushing inside him once more and whispering a litany of desire and praise into Sephiroth’s mind now that he was certain Sephiroth was, and always would be, his.
Sephiroth gasped a little as he woke up, shifting unconsciously despite Cloud’s arm and leg resting over his body. He hadn’t really registered what had happened after Cloud rubbed his seed into that bite he’d given Sephiroth, but he could feel Cloud hard inside him, and even though he ached from that he loved it; Cloud had to have been inside him all night, he was still asleep now. He deliberately tightened his muscles for a moment around Cloud, just enough to encourage him to move, and then relaxed as completely as he could, waiting to see how he responded. It hadn’t worked, and he wriggled just a little bit, hoping that would wake Cloud up enough to start moving. It would be a dry fuck, worse than a dry fuck with the dried come already inside him, but Sephiroth knew he could relax enough to cope with that, if he could take Angeal, even with lube he could take Cloud dry, and besides, he had the day off and he could use it to recover easily enough.
Cloud started to move inside him, nuzzling the back of Sephiroth’s neck and making sleepy little noises as his arm tightened around Sephiroth’s body, then he froze and from the stiffness of his body he had to be awake.
“Oh, fuck!”
“Yes, please. If you can reach, if this is my bed, not yours, I think there’s a Potion on the table behind you.” They’d both kept most of their gear packed away, and there wasn’t a Potion on the table in front of him. Sephiroth could sense Cloud’s feelings of guilt, but he wasn’t sure what their source was, and he hoped that this would settle them for a bit. He could feel Cloud shifting behind him as he released Sephiroth, prompting a slight whine, and slid almost fully out of him, then he could feel the cool Potion being poured onto Cloud’s cock between them. Sephiroth shut his eyes and moaned in pleasure as Cloud slid into him, spreading the Potion inside him and soothing the aches from the previous night, then Cloud reached around and began to stroke him as well, and he heard Cloud’s voice in his mind claiming him.
‘Yes, I’m yours.’ That seemed to be enough to bring Cloud to climax, and the pleasure he sent into Sephiroth’s mind triggered the same for him. When Cloud pulled out this time Sephiroth didn’t protest, he just let his...keeper roll him onto his back and climb on top of him.
“Sephiroth, I’m...sorry. I...I don’t know what came over me last night, I just...”
“It isn’t your fault. I know you wouldn’t do that in your right mind. It’s alright.” Sephiroth wrapped his arms around Cloud and nuzzled him briefly.
“What do you mean it’s alright? I raped you last night, and then I pissed on you!” Sephiroth had been trying to avoid coming to that conclusion, despite the evidence of his senses.
“I...Cloud, we were both drugged, I could have done without that last bit, but I am submissive, and right up until you rubbed your come into the bite you gave me I was having a really good time. I’d have consented to everything you did up to and including that even without the drugs; those and you pissing on me are the only two things I had any objections to. But...I...sort of blanked out when you did that with the bite...did you notice the change?” He couldn’t do anything to change how much control Cloud had over him, and Cloud would find out, he’d probably be told this week, but he could at least try and teach him how to take care of him when he stopped registering things. Sephiroth didn’t like using Cloud’s obvious sense of guilt against him, but...
“You went all limp and unresponsive, but I didn’t care and I should have.”
“And you would have if you hadn’t been drugged. You will if that happens again, I know you well enough to be certain of that. Would you like to know how...to care for me under those circumstances?”
“Yes!”
“It is very simple to describe, less simple to perform. You simply need to keep on touching me, gently, and speak to me in a quiet, comforting tone of voice. The exact words won’t be important while I’m unresponsive, but when I start to regain awareness you need to make sure that what you say is comforting, I won’t be able to handle criticism then.” Sephiroth hesitated, but he had reacted like this before, and he was probably not the best person to teach Cloud how to take care of him in that condition. “Zack and Angeal have both seen and dealt with me in that condition, you should ask them for more advice.”
“I’ll do that.” Cloud seemed to have calmed down enough to begin thinking, and Sephiroth hoped that was a good sign. “You keep on saying we were both drugged and that what I did wasn’t really my fault. Did you know this was going to happen beforehand?”
“I...the ShinRa board decided I was too uncontrollable, they selected you for this because they thought they could control you better.” Cloud was getting impatient, Sephiroth could tell, and he changed what he was going to say. “Yes, I knew you’d take me once Hojo had finished conditioning me to obey you under any circumstances. I knew they planned to give you a drug to make sure you would take me, and to drug me so I couldn’t resist, but I wanted you before I knew about their plans, or how our link would be completed.” He was terrified that Cloud would think he’d seduced him to manipulate him or something, even though one of the reasons he’d dragged Cloud to his bed that first night was to make sure that he at least knew what to do. Cloud felt guilty enough as it was, if he’d been ignorant last night and really hurt Sephiroth...
“I think I can believe what you told me about last night not being rape now. Did you have to break up with Zack and Angeal because of this?” He didn’t seem to be angry at least.
“Not exactly. They...as long as you aren’t possessive they want to keep on with what they have with me.”
“Your order of priorities is as follows then: your health come first;” Cloud must have heard some of the stories Zack told about him being overworked to make that a stipulation. “then your duties, everything you need to do as ShinRa’s best general; I come next, the time I want to spend with you; Zack and Angeal can have you if it doesn’t conflict with any of the other priorities I’ve set.” He looked uncertain then. “I can do that can’t I?”
“Give me orders and set priorities for my life from now on? Oh yes.” And it was a turn on in a way he hadn’t expected. “Thank you for being so generous. How do you want me to address you in private? We can’t let most people know about this, part of the conditioning.”
“What do you mean, how do I want you to address me?” Cloud looked shocked, and Sephiroth knew he hadn’t thought about the implications of how they were bound, and it looked as if he wouldn’t really like them. Sephiroth loved the implications, he’d always felt there was something missing from him and his life, a sense of connection that he’d hungered for - and now he had it.
“In a very real sense you own me now.” Cloud looked horrified by that and Sephiroth hurried to reassure him. “It’s alright, I like that, at least since it’s you, and I know you wouldn’t abuse the power you have over me. I just wondered, when we play that sort of game Zack and Angeal have me call them by some sort of title...”
“No. Just call me Cloud.” He sighed then. “We should probably be getting up now, shouldn’t we?”
“I have today off, and we’ve got time to shower together if you want.”
“That sounds good.”
Cloud hadn’t felt this uncertain since that first night with Sephiroth - the only time the General had ever taken him he realised in hindsight. He hadn’t had any problems dealing with Zack and Angeal when they were training him as he got used to his Mako enhancements; they’d been focused purely on training him, and as demanding as they were he’d felt a sense of impersonality to it, more from Angeal than from Zack. They hadn’t had any chance to say anything about his interference in their relationship with Sephiroth, but now Zack had been assigned to take him to his new quarters, and he couldn’t shake the feeling that he’d betrayed his mentor in a way.
“Hey, whatever you told Sephiroth that got him to stop overworking himself and skipping meals and sleep thanks.” Cloud hadn’t expected that, and he smiled at Zack in response.
“I just gave him a list of priorities, and his health was first. You and Angeal come after me though, and I come after his duty.”
“That’s about what we hoped for once we heard you’d been chosen to be Sephiroth’s keeper really, and it’s not like we don’t have the option to find someone else.” Was Zack implying that Cloud and Sephiroth didn’t have that option? He had to admit, at least mentally that he wouldn’t have been so understanding about Sephiroth’s lovers if it hadn’t been a threesome including Zack, and he certainly wasn’t going to let him find any other lovers. “You do understand that you can’t be given any position where you’ll be working directly with Sephiroth yet?”
“Not until we’ve got used to our positions, and learned to keep from letting our personal lives spill over into our duties, I know.”
“Yeah, speaking of personal lives Sephiroth mentioned that you needed someone to tutor you when it comes to aftercare?”
“You mean how to deal with it when he goes all limp and unresponsive?” Cloud kept his voice quiet, they were getting close to SOLDIER territory and he didn’t want anyone to overhear them.
“Umm...not quite. Look, Sephiroth said he wanted to wait and see if there was anything you wanted tonight before he considered making arrangements with us, if you wanted you could meet us in Sephiroth’s quarters around six and we could show you what we mean by aftercare.”
“Not tonight, I want to be with him alone tonight. Tomorrow or the day after if that’s alright with you and Angeal?”
“I’ll get back to you on that. As a SOLDIER 3rd class you get to share a bedroom with up to three other SOLDIERs 3rd class, and a bathroom for every two bedrooms. There’s a room with just two occupants at the moment, and you’ll be moving into that one.” Zack raised his voice as he began to talk about practicalities, and Cloud noted that he’d have to go to Sephiroth’s quarters every time, not that he really minded.
“Do you have any clue where I’m assigned if I’m not going to be working directly with the General?” Cloud accepted the change from personal business to professional business easily.
“No, you might even get a couple of days leave while that’s decided, so keep up with your training until someone tells you where to report.”
“I can do that.” He’d love to show Sephiroth how much he’d improved under Zack and Angeal’s tuition and more training always helped. “Any suggestions about sparring partners?” He already knew Gregori was out.
“I’d say you should look for opponents who’re taller than you and broader across the shoulders. Mako can do about three different things to you; simply add muscle mass, increase height and add muscle mass, or alter the way your body’s built, making the muscles and bones denser.” Cloud nodded, he understood the implication that he was going to fit into the last category and he wondered which category Zack and Sephiroth fell into. “Here’s your room anyway, and your keycard too,” Zack handed the keycard to Cloud after using it to open the door for him, “and you’ve already got all your gear haven’t you?”
“Yes.” He’d been issued three new uniforms during his third week in the lab - when Hojo decided he’d adapted well enough to his enhancements - and he was carrying the trunk with all of his gear in, revelling in his new strength even if it was a bit awkward because of the shape of the trunk. The room was empty, but it was pretty clear which beds were already occupied and Cloud set his trunk at the end of one of the beds that didn’t already have one before going to do some more training.
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Date: 2006-09-05 02:35 pm (UTC)*strawberry cakes for you* Love this! And looking forward to what Zack have in mind about the aftercare~
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Date: 2006-09-06 08:32 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-09-06 10:16 am (UTC)My problem is not how tentative Cloud was. It's, well, I expect to read a story which can make me feel hot. I'm not a Dom/Sub person, so it'll take more than pure describing to make me interested. At least it's what I think... Same problem with some other chapters in your other story. I read "Cloud ordered Seph to do something and the ordering made them both hot", and I felt little in it. But I like the second half very much, so maybe it's just me...
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Date: 2006-09-06 10:34 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-09-06 01:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-09-20 07:48 pm (UTC)I have been meaning to comment on this for a while, and wanted to word it in the right way---
ahhhhh **love it**
yes, indeed.
You did something most ppl are too scared to do, and god I love you for that.
This is the essence of UKE roth material, and I for one loved every moment.
well done, my dear, never fear!!!!!
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Date: 2006-09-21 10:12 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-10-25 03:01 pm (UTC)I've read the first ten parts of this series, and I'd be interested in seeing more.
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Date: 2007-10-26 08:41 am (UTC)As for posting more...I've got a sort of beta who I sometimes run the more extreme scenes by, to make sure that I'm writing something reasonable, and that my notes about how those scenes differ from good BDSM practice are extensive enough. Unfortunately she's got RL problems, and one of the scenes in the next chapter was...really bad, bad enough that my initial version apparently read more like a gang rape than the - badly managed - planned and consensual scene it was mmeant to be. And I handled the aftercare badly, because I was reluctant to get far enough into Sephiroth's head after what I'd just put him through. So I won't be posting chapter 11 until I've got the go ahead for one of the two rewrites I did on that scene.